bLiSs>>> at Last ... =)

salam satu malaysiaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa~~

hihi... =)

WONDERFUL!!

why??

exam abess suda....

it had been 4 days taw...at last, abess gak...feel free gilerrr...

did call mom n my sister daily...sian diorg nk kne anwer phone pg2 bute...

thnx mak...thnx anem... =) luv you all!!! weeeeehhoooo~

alhamdulillah~

well,

my crazy friends..cam biasa...mus,muna,money,mady,nani,sopi..

did plan for a picnic...

haha...

but, it was a plan la...

dunno if we cud make it happen or not...

n i didn't bring my car here...it was happily resting in kedah lor..

only bawak my naza scooter here...

xkn nk pegy kkb naek scoot...gile...xmaw2~~~

so...yg bleh pegy only 5 of us...isk2...

cmne eh...

well..if the plan menjadik...

my dad asked me to go to our house at kkb,ulu selangor..

cz maybe we'll go to waterfall around kkb kot...

dad asked me to..

check up stuff n bersih2kn umah...

heshh...dat house was ok ...fully-furnished...but..

sbb xde org dduk...seram a plak...huhu

my miaw2 y tomei di ignore today 2x cz i hd no money...adoii

he was kaciwa...

gomenn~~~ ~_~

5.32 pm

29 october 2009

thursday~

he hates me...doesn't it....

i was in the middle of writing my reflective essay...

so blurr...dunno wat 2 talk about tho chel n muna oredy gave me the 'picture'...

my ym status was : hepykah aku? since last nite..n i didn't change it...

i saw him ..on9..at last..

after the midst of a confused work of tat essay...

i saw a pop-up ym window...it was from him...

which i was so happy to receive it..

then...

he asked me whether 'i am hapy or not'..

n i juz simply reply....'u know d answer so dont ask me'...

he said sorry...if he caused these 'bad feelings'...

no!

i was the bad person...

n now,i'm paying for that...

i dunno if i caused him to loathe me that much...he juz signed out...

he left me...

n now i sound so pathetic...

i didn't know when my fingers started clicking on the ym archive...

i read those ym chat we'd instead of writing my assignment...

i was in a teary misery....God...i didn't know...why...

im such a wacko....

11.29 am

25 oct 2009

sunday~

epi...i hope both of us will be happy...

grief...again....

i cried again..

i dunno why recently i was so-entangled in sorrow...

i was miserable...pathetic....

1.35 am

24 oct 2009

saturday~
epi...i hope both of us will be happy...

juz relaxing for a while....sattt~~~~

uhh...

did on9 exercises on reported speech..again n again...

so...*take a break*

hahahhaha

din have kit kat la unfortunately~ adoii...

so,

killed my time by 'sms-ing' wif a kakkoii fren... =)

did ask me bout my bday...

haha...

he's cute!!

kayyhh..

get back to work!!!

es...n ss...ldes got sum more....

God..plz help me..

ameenn~~~

12.08 am,

24 oct 2009,

saturday~

tears...seen kissing my cheek again....

BONECA - LET ME


Let me pretend that you're still by my side

Let me say things that I know you'll never hear
Let me feel that I still have some pride

Then let me just wipe the escaped tears
Let me say your name once more aloud
For your mocking ghost around me to hear

Let me laugh at my illusions and scream out
Here's a fool left with no heart nor a future
Chorus:
Just let me Let me alone in my reality

And let me Let me chase your shadow in my dream

Keep on dying in your life Reminiscing all your lies Let me Just let me be
Let me treasure those moments shared together

Please don't let me stain my memories with tears

If you must just fade away with the summer

Let there be no more spring in my coming year
(Repeat chorus)
If only one day you'll just come to me

Say straight to my face how much you hate me

So that I can stop thinking of you

And all that we've been through
So let me be Just let me be
Just let me

Let me fly up with my broken wings
And let me

Let me bleed until I finally heal

Keep on trying to survive

Within all this love inside

Let me Just let me be
Just let me
Kill you in my mind

Don't you be
No more in my eyes

Just let me

Kill you in my mind

Don't you be Don't you be No more
*taken from http://ikimpc.blogspot.com/2009/04/lyricsboneca-let-me.html

thanx ~ =)



misery...grief...sadness...

torn my smile apart today...

i wished tat i wont b like diz anymore...

i'd enuf....



11.58 pm,

22 oct 2009,

thursday~
*epi...i hope both of us will be happy...

happy...happy....

it was wednesday...

a good one yah...hahah

wei shenme??

my final assignment a.k.a movie clip presentation ----> FINISHED!!!THE END!!!!!!!

WEEEeeehOOOOoooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!

alhamdulillah...trima kasih Tuhan =)

at last...

all the hard work paid beautifully to us...yeah!

the movie (tho i kinda dislike sum parts..) was okay =)

n the presentation ...good!haha

i mentioned bout kpl's 12 mega pixel-cam...d video was clear!n bam!!the lecturers like it!

n also trimas to muna's aunt punya hndycam...quite cool la using it..huhu

planning to buy one la ....

well...

it was indeed a happy day...

i got a- for my ldv assignment ..it was ok la as long as it was an 'a' rite...huhu

but a slight error of not putting in 'in-my-opinion' thing....,,,

i regretted my b for es assignment...hurmm..

no scout thing for today..

yeah!!!

n oso...

wat ar...

haha...hope tat i cud get my bike washed sumwhere la...

sian dia asek mndi ujan je kn...huhu...

distributing the prom nite invitation cards to the lecturers..

hoping tat they wud come n enjoy la wif us tat nite..hihi..

things ran smoothly ..

n i was hoping the same for my exam...

which wud start next week..

pray for hani's success ya ...ameenn....

10.47 pm

21 oct 09,

wednesday~

im still crying......

..n..keep crying....

.......i dnno....im sobbing n typing...

still crying...

dunno wat 2 say...

dunno wat 2 feel...

dunno wat 2 do...

im listening 2 those song which i haven't n won't delete...

i feel miserable...

i am...

stupid...

such a loser...

filthy moron!!

im so sorry....im soooo ssoorryyy...

im so sory.......plz forgive me...n tell ur mom i was so sory for hurting her son's feeling...

im so sorry...

im so sorryy..

im so soorryy...........

i dunno whether 'now' is d best decision or not.......

i cried when i saw my friends heading 2 d bus....

i cried in d bus...when going back to mktab...

i cried when i was riding my scooter...

i cried in d lift...

now im crying in front of my netbook...

im listening to the song...teman...again...n again..n again..

i won't delete it...i won't....

7.16pm

october 10,2009

saturday~
epi...i hope both of us will be happy...

it's all about raya..hehe

greetings fella...hehe

happy eid mubarak 2 all of u...

in fact...i had a very beautiful, satisfying n happy myself... :)

well...nk tules gak tho dh lmbt for weekssss...

my journey to balik kmpung was nice..(yelah 2..)

coz i had 2 take lrt..ktm...n train to reach tg.malim station...

n then... dragged my kelabu beg beroda along d way from tat station 2 d mosque..

dh la ujan...cisss....

so...there...my parents picked me wif tat almost-7-yr-old waja..n anem n niza were there too..

ahaxx~

errmm....smpai jek kt my kampung, my grandma was there...

bz cooking for 2nite n 2morrow n 2 days later..(usually,..it'll be like diz..)hehe..

mak su n her family oso there...

iwan n pak su bz bakar sate...n there...

..ouh!! irfan..my favourite cousin, was at the tangga,,,..looking..so..uhh..plump!

time passed so fast ya...i still remembered tat i rily thot tat he's d cutest cousin i ever had..

now, mmg la still comell..but dh makin bulat...(ckp org lak kn..)hehe..

wah3....my kampung...lpe lak nk tgkp gmba..

it was gud...still stood there...a big wooden house...

built by my late javanese grandfather...

the stairs, even though looked old, but it cud possibly carry the weight of 2 elephants..

.........errr...maybee......

tat nite, more relatives came home n the atmosphere of my grndma's house bcme happier...n i juz loved it!!! >_<

my cousins,sisters n i juz lepak2ing n some were watching movies using my netbook..

haha...not to forget my lil sister, fussy bout her pmr...carrying her watever book everywhere...dushh...she's very gelabah bout her pmr...rily wanted 2 go 2 kisas...

hope she'll succeed...aminnn...

well, d 1st raya...sume pn busy cntik2 tat morning....

gotcha!!!irfan-anem-niza-dayah..hehe

huhu....

well, d celebration went on smoothly n i did enjoy it .. >_<

i luv my family!!!hihi!!

ayah-raya morning speech~

mak n ayah bersalam2an...me was busy taking pics..

anem-me-dayah(cousin)-niza

my family wif me being together in the photo..hihi

my whole family-me n abg nizam taking pics-mak yah's family oso...

I LUV MY FAMILY!!! >_<

SELAMAT HARI RAYA!!!

MAAF ZAHIR BATIN N HALAL KN SEMUAAA...hihi 0-0 ya... >_<