i dunno where i shud start diz..
wat wud u say..if u got diz matter which to u is rily big deal but not to others?
i dunno...
small things cn bring big fight to me mahh...y?
cz i take tat 'deal' seriously as it is about myself...it's mine...ske hti aku la...
so..
if tat matter is being play2 by others..for sure i'll get angry maahhh...
so..diz is where d story beginsss...
.......................... ................. ................. xde ideaaaa ..........................
hahahahha............................... XD
well...ermm...never mind lah..
since d problem settled already...no nid to mention anything la kn...
juz wanna remind myself when these things happened to me la..
hahahhaha.... XD
wisdom words... "acknowledge ur feeling..never sweep under the rug.."
to conclude, me myself ain't perfect...
if they think im a person who alwez laugh, happy, sweet2 nice2 one...like wat i am right now...
maybe somtimes..they forget tat im still a normal person who has the same
feeling as they have...
i hv the right to feel angry rite?
i hv the right to feel sad rite?
if ppl laugh at u or make u sucha fool..wud u ever tease them back?
to my frens, have i ever done that to u???
i never do that...y?
coz, i dont wanna throw myself into conflicts that will affect my life...
so, i think postively that maybe one day other people will do the same to them..
n then ..they will know wat r my feelings like being fooled ...
if im angry...
i will juz keep quiet...keep a distance ..so i wont throw tantrum easily to ppl near me..
i dont want ppl to get hurt coz of me...coz i rily love my frens..
however...i doubt their concern about my own feelings...
is it wrong for me to ask them...
..."can u pls understand my feelings? maybe juz once?"
or..."can u pls giv me sum space for my privacy n stuff?"
...maybe... "can u pls not to question my actions n watsoever?"
.................etc...............
somehow..i try to accept the fact tat ppl smtimes r too bz with other ppl's life..
until they cant realize that they have exceeded to limits...
ppl smtimes wish that they r gven a little personal n private place..
juz for them...n hope this tiny opportunity is not being interfered by others..
how i rily wish for that...
like i say..dont question all my actions as if ure the best person in the world who does no wrong at all...rubbish!
i can do wat i want..n most importantly, i dont interrupt ur life, isn't it??
u tell me to understnd u but...hv u ever considered others' feelings as well??
n yeah...u force me to tell u my secrets but u know tat u will tell my secrets to others??haha...funny la...
i learn...n observe...
ppl, u shud be careful if ure telling secrets to others..coz u might not know..
when u will be hearing ur secrets told by others whom u dont even know closely..
n i learn...
how many times u try to think positively about others..
how many times u r being nice to ppl...
how many times u forgive others about shits they do to u...
these things might not count coz ppl tend to forget or juz simply be ignorant..
i cud say ppl themselves r selfish..
they only think abt themselves without considering others as well..
it really hurts...cz wat hv u done nicely b4 to them is not being appreciated..
instead, they gv it a damn...they will never realize it..believe me................
well..
i really love my frens...
n i dont want them to get hurt cz of me...
instead of shitty things they do, maybe i will stay as who i used to be...
juz be patient..happy2 person..smiley2 person...
it's not being hypocrite but i prefer to be concern abt others' feeling rather than mine...
life is a bitter-sweet-sour journey..
it is long and full of joy if ure optimist n positive to others..
i believe that God will help those who r patient n think abt their frens n family...
8.15 pm
3 march 2010
wednesday~
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